notice one factor while i am in the army these 2 years.(yes, i have been in the army for 2 yrs le)
anyway i realised the fact that people who are quiet and keep all their feelings to themselves have, amongst all the different characters, the highest possibility to get depression.

maybe bcoz they just keep stuffing all their troubles and watever shit into that glass bottle in their tiny heart. different people have different sizes of bottles. but no matter how big it is, the glass bottle will eventually overflow one day and when it happens. it just basically erupts.

so basically wat u should do is just to regularly empty ur glass bottle at least once in a while. confide to ur close frans. it always feels better when you know that in the whole wide world, there is someone out there who is sharing ur burden, sharing the pain which you feel.

hmmm to a new topic.

have you eaten your breakfast?

i have..

ok crap. wat the fuck. wat does it have to do with you right?

as people grow up, you will definitely learn new things right?
experience feelings that you have never experienced before. like falling in love, having close frans, sharing problems, being on stage, losing a competition, winning trophies etc. you dont know how you will feel till u experience these mixture of feelings urself. These feelings just doesnt come with you when you were born.

when i was young, i easily believed people. even when both sides quarrel, whoever tell me his story first i would be like "oh how could that fucker do this to you?"

then when i hear the other side i would be like "oh so its that fucker who is lying to me"

then when i go hear the other side i would again be like "oh he is a lanjiao lang male organ human."

so basically i was jumping ships all the time. it was only then when i grew older that i know no matter how realistic, true or watever one party says, you should never make ur own stand till you hear both side of the stories.

does it sound familiar to you?

i blive most of us went thru this stage before. learning to listen to both stories before you place your verdict. haha i learnt thru it in a quite a hard way i should say. i also forgot how le but just remember that it wasnt easy knowing this fact.

anyway life is about learning new things and experiencing new feelings. still looking forward to this part of growing up :P