so free that i basically read a lot of people's blog today. basically all of them i dont know who they are at all. realise there are really a lot of fantastic bloggers out there.

actually this few weeks got an urge to revamp my blog to somethin new. too bad i don like to use those default blog skins from other place cause i like originality. but to support originality, i need the skills and knowledge to so-called create one design myself which i am lacking haha.. so hopefully can learn by myself. explore the world of using alphabets and numbers to create fascinating stuff.

ok, of course thats just ideally. ideally i want to have the most fantastic blog in the whole world.
but realistically i am stuck with a ugly background and one Legolas from LOTR. zzZZZzz..

one wise man once told me something about 'realistically' and 'ideally'. this wise man goes by the surname of Hong. and don worry, i am not saying myself in this case, its my brother.

Ideally: The idea of something that is perfect; something that one hopes to attain

Realistically: In a realistic manner; present state

ideally, i wanted to be a millionaire since young and earn my first million by 23.
realistically i am nowhere, stuck with a screw up diploma and earning a miserable 0.7k from our government. and guess wat?
i am 22 now with only 1 year remaining hoping for a miracle to happen. flippin thru my bank book, i realise i am not so far away from my target after all. just $998, 400 away from my first million. not so jialat whattt~~ one year leh. can la. buy toto evry month. if evry month strike once, think by 5 months can get my million le..

see.. thats ideally again. realistically i think i will be stuck with that figures for the rest of my NS life. just cant wait to get back my little precious pink IC. i have forgotten how i look like when i had my pink IC liao. saddening :(

ideally i intended to go overseas when i was in sec school, even poly. but realistically thinkin now, i think it wont be worth the trip, the money, the evrything. wat i wan is just to get the degree. yes, evryone just wans to get hold of a degree. thanks to the goverment, its ok if you really don have work performance, we only recognise degree. which means black and white paper.

even in camp, my men will complain about how good our life is , the Specialists la, officers la etc. our life seems much better than them. very soon, they start to realise the fact of life, the fact of sg government and they start saying, "bo bian.. who ask me live in singapore. who ask why singapore government only recognise diplomas, degrees and will only think that people are useful only if they have EDUCATION. who ask me mai tuck chae(dont study) during school"

it may seem like vengeful words but they do make a point. tts y bo bian la, me need to get the degree no matter wat. but go overseas no money and i am not guarantee to have a good income when i come back so i guess i will settle for a local private degree.

ya the reason why since i studyin locally, then why not get a degree in NTU or NUS is because bo bian~~ mai tuck chae during poly. and ta ma de wa lao, apply for 2 years, both years also kana rejected. evrytime reject letter still type till so swee swee siah.

Thanks for applying with XXX. We thanks you for recognising XXX and appying with us. But however due to strong competition we are sad to inform.......

write so much fucking crap. just tell me i am not accepted la knn.
and worse still, need to pay 20 dollars evry year just for people to write rejection letter to me.. really #&@(^&(%$~!!!!